Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Bloody sodding insomnia - again!
Aarrghh. Its 1.50am in Glasgow, I'm slowly farting myself to death in my shoe-box sized hotel room and I can't bloody sleep. This, despite the 400mg Neurontin (perhaps I should have taken the whole tablet instead of breaking it in two..). I'm actually actively starting to dislike Glasgow - I know, its very unfair of me, but someone has to take the fall, so I'm afraid "European City of Culture", its your rap. Its amazing also how much shite runs through your mind in the wee small hours when you're unsuccessfully trying to perform as simple a human function as falling asleep. Also was unsuccessful in my time zones conversion skill, as I thought it was 6am in Cyprus, so gave Mum a call for a pep-up chat. It was 3am. Oops. But felt much better after talking to her - but consequently am now even more awake. Am toying with the idea of chasing some elusive zzz's again or maybe I'll just throw in the towel, get up and do my packing. (why is it, when I travel, I'm a completely messy cow? lying here in bed, looking round at my room, its like a bomb exploded in my suitcase as there's stuff just everywhere!! Actually, the very thought of getting up and starting packing is exhausting. Maybe I'll ponder that a while longer - it may be the mental Ambien I need.....
There but for the grace of God...
And I dont even believe in God but, given the news of the plane crash at Madrid airport (where I'm flying to tomorrow) with over 100 people killed, it puts your little existential agonisings into perspective. They, like me, would have thought they were just on another flight and certainly not that this take-off was going to represent the final few moments of their lives. We all intellectually assume immortality and spend our lives caught up in the minitiae that only becomes important when we assume our continued existence. I try and live as much in the present moment as I can to offset this but still find myself losing perspective and sweating the small stuff. At least one thing I do know is that, when that final moment happens for me, I know I've led an emotionally honest life so that my last thoughts wont be "If only I'd told them I loved them". At that point in time, probably one of my weaknesses (being too damned emotionally open!) will become my final, greatest strength.

And on that deep note, I'm off to the Ubiquitous Chip for some haggis, tatties and neeps!
Where Do I Belong??!
So its curious. Been here in the UK for 5 days and can honestly say I feel no vestiges of sentimental attachment to old Blighty whatsoever. Usually, when I've come back, I've got a little thrill of "Oh, look! There's Sainsbury's!" or "Wow - a Marks and Spencer!" when walking down the high street, a combo of the buzz of recognition and familiarity with the stupidly mild surprise of them still managing to cling onto business, despite my absence for the last 4 and a half years. This time, nothing. Nada. Even my totemic trip to Marksies to stock up on undies and tights failed to ignite any sparks of homeward longing. It is a bit of a weird feeling - mildly depressing but in a glass half-full way, I guess its liberating too. Its playing into my current mental state of itchyfootedness - the sense that a big change is on its way. Whether its just job or maybe location, who knows, but I guess one of the benefits of being single is that you can do and go wherever the hell you like, so I'm figuring why not?

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Sorry Glasgow
But you are sodding depressing in the rain. Where's the bloody sunshine gone?

Monday, August 18, 2008

Aromatic emissions
So just digesting an absolutely ENORMOUS curry here in Glasgow - went to Ashoka, one of the best curry places in town, and it reminded me of my student days in Cambridge when you would attempt to eat your own body weight in unidentified meaty chunks soaked in cumin-scented grease and think it was a job well-done. Especially when paired with some limp-wristed bilge that was supposed to pass for lager. I think I must have put on 6lbs in weight over the last 4 hours - ugh! Dont think Tosca Reno would be very impressed with the cleanness of my eating over the last couple days! Ah well - soon, I'll be in Madrid where it'll be so damned hot i wont want to do anything than sweat and drink water.

OK - time to open the windows in my hotel room before i inadvertently smother myself with a deficit of oxygen.

Friday, August 15, 2008

A Plane Decision
So I think I need to find myself an Irish boyfriend. On my first flight with Aer Lingus, from Washington to Dublin, I found myself being seduced by the silver-tongued accent of my 3'5" flight attendent who just sounded so soft and lilting, I wanted to take him home there and then and introduce him to my mother. That, plus the extremely heavy handed pour of the flight attendents as they re-filled my glass throughout the dinner service, I really think we may have found the start of something very special and meaningful....
Journey from hell to arse end of nowhere!!

Wow - what a palaver that was!! Busy day in the office trying to finish up everything before my European jaunt, before running for my car at 4.30pm to catch the Delta Shuttle at 6.30pm to Washington. Alas in the car, the heavens opened and it started absolutely pissing it down with rain, black skies, thunder and streaks of lightening ripping across the sky. Oh joy. I began pondering whether a) I was ever going to make it out of LaGuardia this evening and b) whether a plane could actually survive a direct hit by lightening. Obviously all very cheery thoughts!!

Actually lucked out in the end (to a certain degree) because - as they cancelled my flight due to bad weather - we actually all got herded on to the delayed 4.30pm flight that was still sitting on the tarmac a full hour and a half after its supposed departure time! You could tell they were so happy to have been wheeled back to the departure gate when we all trooped on! So, despite the weather and a VERY bumpy flight, I only arrived 30mins late. So, so far, so good - my baggage arrived with me too (always a bonus!) so just a simple cab ride to the hotel. Hmm. This is where things got interesting as a simple cab ride turned into a bit of a nightmare as my enormous, sweaty driver had absolutely no bloody idea of where the hotel was! Obviously I didnt find this out until after I'd got in the cab - and, despite the cabbie calling the hotel for directions - we had an absolute nightmare trying to find the sodding Sheraton. It was all OK until we reached Powder Mill Road, which was where the hotel was supposed to be, but we drove up and down that road at least 4 times and couldnt spot it. The cabbie was getting more and more irate and frustrated and, after about 20mins of driving up and down, declared that "if we dont find it in the next couple of mins, I'm done"!! GREAT!! Minutes away from being dumped and abandoned at a gas station in the arse end of nowhere!! Fortunately, just as the cabbie was about to totally lose the plot, I spotted the hotel in the distance and that we needed to take a left where we'd previously gone straight across an intersection. Thank God for that. As a testament to my Britishness, instead of ripping the cabbie a new one for not knowing where the hotel was, I overly tipped him out of gratitude for not being abandoned by the side of the road, in the dark, with my suitcases. I checked in, dumped my bags and then headed straight for the bar for a restorative gin and tonic! Hope the rest of my trip is less eventful!!!

So, am now sitting on my tod in the Pfizer office, after a morning of preparations, as the rest of the team has just left for their meeting with the FDA. Got a couple of hours to kill before my car picks me up at 4pm, ready for my flight to Glasgow - trying to stay away from the cookies....

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Yey!!  Off on my travels again!

Well, after a couple of weeks feeling sorry for myself, its now time to pick myself up and look forward - and what better way than a 2 week tour of Europe, courtesy of Charlie P! (that's Charles Pfizer, founder of my wonderful company, in case you didn't know!).  Actually, it is work, not a vacation - am off first to Washington today for a meeting with the FDA, then I fly tomorrow night to Glasgow (via Dublin) to meet with a group of surgeons and anaesthieologists to discuss post-operative pain protocols.  Am in Glasgow for 5 nights at the World Congress of Pain before then heading off to Madrid for another congress (EFNS, this time!) and another 6 nights!  I'm really looking forward to Madrid, as I've not been there before - another city to add to my Facebook map!!  My medical colleague is Spanish and from that area, so I'm hoping she'll take me to some great local hang-outs and restaurants!  OK - gotta finish packing and get to work!!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Just got Inked!!
So after years of procrastination, today was (unexpectedly!) finally the day I took the plunge and got my first tattoo! Yes - all those hours spent looking out of the window from my apartment in Christopher Street finally propelled the subconscious into conscious action and I found myself in Tattoo Heaven, just after midday today.  After explaining the real reason I was there was delayed peer pressure from my Mother (she'd got a tattoo there 3yrs earlier - a lower back tattoo saying "F*ck You" in Chinese characters!), the guy asked me what I was thinking of getting.  "The hell outta here" crossed my mind, but instead I replied I was looking for something pretty, discrete and feminine.  Something non-visible except to me, my gyneacologist and bikini waxer.  After looking at a gazillion non-inspiring pictures of flowers, I stumbled across a collection of Myan Tribal symbols and one in particular, Dwennimmen, really captured my attention.   

Dwennimmen is a symbol from the Akan people of Ghana, West Africa and is a symbol of strength, humility, wisdom and learning.  It derives from the geometric shape of a ram's horns  - the ram is seen as a very strong animal with graceful and magnificent horns  and, even though its horns can be used viciously and forcefully for survival, the ram normally chooses not to use them as such but to be graceful and elegant in its approach.  The strength of a ram depends not so much on the forcefulness of its horns but on the integrity of its heart.  In addition to beauty (inner and outer), Dwennimmen also signifies the necessary balance that is needed in life.  A person may be talented and gifted and may have skills and knowledge, but it is not these virtues alone that enables one to excel.  It is the creative use of these skills; the strength in mind, body and soul; and the humility that comes from understanding one's place in the universe.  It is the learning and wisdom that comes with time that enables a person to exceed his normal capabilities and excel in his endeavours (Adinkra Dictionary by W.Bruce Willis, 1998).

I can't think of anything better to have as my first tattoo.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

New Life Kick-Ass Recipes

Here are a couple of my favourite recipes from my time here at New Life Hiking Spa. More can be found on their website at www.newlifediet.com. Yummy!!

Avocado Dressing
1 ripe avocado, peeled and seeded
1 clove crushed garlic
1 plum tomato, finely chopped
1 tbs. red onion, finely chopped
1/2 cup skim or soy milk
1/2 cup yogurt
Dash of Cumin and/or chili powder to taste
Tamari to taste

Mix all ingredients in blender until smooth.

Chicken Sesame and Spinach Pasta Salad
6 oz. pasta twists
½ cup sesame seeds
½ cup light sesame or extra virgin olive oil
1/3 cup wine vinegar
1/3 cup soy sauce
2 tbs. sugar
¼ tsp. pepper
3 cups cold, shredded cooked chicken
½ cup finely chopped parsley
½ cup thinly sliced green onion
8 cups lightly packed torn fresh spinach (2 bunches)

Boil pasta, drain. Meanwhile, cook sesame seeds in ¼ cup oil in fry pan, stirring until golden. Cool. Stir in remaining cup oil, soy sauce, vinegar, sugar and pepper. Pour over cooked pasta, add chicken and toss lightly. Cover and chill for at least 2 hours or overnight. To serve, add parsley, onions and spinach. Toss gently.

New Life Sundae
4 perfectly ripe bananas, sliced
Chocolate sauce
Nuts & berries

Freeze sliced bananas in a plastic bag. Remove from freezer, thaw 10 minutes then place in blender. Puree until smooth. Consistency will be like ice cream. Use a bit of vanilla yogurt or part of an unfrozen ripe banana in blender if needed. Top with chocolate sauce.
Blue Ridge Hike
Today's hike choice was another advanced one - trailhead was fairly close to the hotel, about a 5min drive away, and firstly went along the flat, through the woods and past some old logging cabins. There were only 3 of us on the hike today (we got a round of applause from all the other hikers this morning when we stepped forward to leave!) which was led by the lovely Chuckles and Drew. After our usual stretch (my calves were soooo tight!), we started our slow and steady climb uphill. I didnt bring the camera kit with me today, as i didnt want the extra weight to carry in case the climb was really strenuous, but in the end, it was actually fine and I really didnt find it horribly tough. After about half an hour, we passed by this lovely waterfall (but just had to content myself with looking at it rather than taking a piccie!) where we stopped to take a breather, before continuing up and actually reaching the top in an hour, way faster than usual!! (yey, us!) The view was OK but a bit limited vista, really, so it was more of a good hike for the exercise, rather than the scenic view from the top. We stopped just long enough for our fruit break before starting our descent again fairly quickly - it had rained for about 20mins on the way up and was threatening to do so again, so we wanted to make it back down before it started pissing it down. The rain we'd had, whilst very pleasant cos it cooled us off on the way up, made it a little slippy underfoot on the way back down, so I had to concentrate extra hard not to lose my footing!! I made it, though, with only one or two minor slippages - a distinct improvement from Patagonia!!!

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Hiking the Appalachian Trail

After a quick restorative phone call to Mum (who assured me that she still did love me!) and a check of the Blackberry to allay the irrational work fears (they still need me!), it was time for breakfast and decision time - which hike to do today? I decided to bite the bullet and go for my first advanced level hike, quite a steep climb up to an overlook called Deer's Leap. There were 6 of us, plus 2 guides and we were actually hiking along part of the Appalachian Trail, which was pretty cool (apparently takes about 6 months to do the entire length!). The hike was pretty tough in places with some steep ascents but fortunately also had enough fairly flat bits so you could get your breath back. I was also lugging all my camera kit, including the tripod, as i'd been told that the view from the top was worth taking it all with me. As you can tell from the pic, the view was pretty stunning although I didnt need my tripod (ah well!) so it was a great hike to do. Fortunately we came back down a different way, so we didnt have to do The Ladder in reverse!!

Got back to the hotel around 12.30pm, took a very speedy shower before lunch before then heading off for kayaking at half one! Drove about 5miles from the hotel to this pretty little lake where we hired out individual kayaks for an hour's gentle paddling and exploring. The weather was absolutely gorgeous, perfectly warm and sunny - I took a bit of a risk and took my camera out with me to take some piccies. Alas, didnt see the loons that our guide was telling us about but there were some very cute ducklings!
After the day's exertions, was time to chill out and relax, so spent the rest of the afternoon out in the sun just reading and sunbathing. About time I started to get some decent colour on me! To round out the day, after dinner, was time for my hot stone massage with Alison - was OK but a little too light for me, but relaxing nonetheless. Then had a lovely long chat with Charles, who's now ensconced back at home after sojourning at my place and looking after the boys for me, so that was a great way to end a very enjoyable day!
Where did that come from?
Wow. Just woken up from an incredibly intense and vivid dream where I got fired from my job for no reason whatsoever. Went from indispensable to disposable with 2 days notice. I either dont dream or usually dont remember them but this one was so strong, its like a movie, as i can still replay bits in my mind. Added to that, in this dream, the loss of my job seemed to be orchestrated by my Mum and sister, and it was all very unpleasant!! I think I came out fighting in the end and decided to sue Pfizer but it was the sense of bewilderment and "but why?" that really got me. I think i need a very very long and strenuous hike today to get the residual anxiety out of my system! Either that or a very large glass of Malbec!! :-(

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Peg Legs

Another chilled out day today (is it only Tuesday? time seems soooo slow out here) - managed this time to get up in time for the 7am stretch and qigong classes (helped by my room's alarm clock mysteriously going off all by itself at 6.35am! nearly gave me a bloody heart attack!). Stretch was good (no matter how much you do, you always seem to feel tight!) and Qigong was interesting, although it would have been good to know a bit more about what the sequences we were performing were supposed to be doing. I have no idea if i did it right or not - at times it all got a bit too co-ordinated for me (especially at that time of the morning!) and i lost the plot, so hopefully i didnt inadvertently do anything weird or irreperable to my Qi!!

After breakfast, time to load into the buses and head off for our hikes. I chose to do the easy intermediate hike today up Mount Peg, mainly so i could mildly amuse myself with lots of internal double-entendres and smutty thoughts (sorry, honey!). Actually, the walk was gorgeous too - quite short, only about 4.5miles or so, but with lovely views across Killington from a beautiful alpine meadow, about halfway up. Got chatting to one of the guides, a chap called Sam, and we were trying to out-nerd each other with our knowledge of camping equipment (he eventually won on account of having once given a 15min lecture on how to strip down and rebuild a MSR Whisperlite stove - I conceded graciously!) and swapped favourite campfire recipes. He also put me on to (another) outdoorsy website called http://www.moosejaw.com/ - yet another mailing list to sign up for!
Following the hike, we continued on into the town of Woodstock to eat our bagged lunch and to do some shopping. Was a very pretty little town and I found this perfect quiet spot for lunch, down the road a bit from the green, right by the river. Very contently chomped my sandwich in the sunshine, sipped my (illicit) non-fat maple latte and read yesterday's copy of the New York Times. Then did a bit of shopping and bought a few pressies before heading back to the hotel for a lazy afternoon in the sun.